NEW EP!!!!!!
HUHUHUHUHU ANOTHER WEEK. ANOTHER EP. I DIDN'T FUCKING EDIT MUCH HERE THIS WEEK BUT I CAN ASSURE YOU I WON'T MISS A DAY
but also, it's ep 49
do you know what this means?
next ep will be the end
the only blessing this world ever gonna get is finally ending
how will i stay myself as i am right now? how will i survive life
you don't know how much i have become more and more disattached to real life in order to survive. i finally learnt the key. it's to always have your mind wanders if it cames to sth you didn't like, just ignore it as much as possible.
but how can i do that without virtual life now?
of course i will be rewatching tcc again again and again many many times trying to relive the glorious day
but just
i feel so empty
i know it lasted as long as it should but
i can't forget those awful memories and feelings between ina11 and tcc. it's littterally hell.
i don't want to be in hell. anime is litterally my escape, the one thing that would keep me who i am today. and even though there are still many flaws but i like how i am right now. i don't want that horrible feeling that's like every cell of my body is a mistake.
good soul anime is my ultimate cure for depression. my coping method, a place where my soul could wanders to when it hurts.
i have seen so many anime, i've always tried to find myself a cure. there are so many good anime/manga but finding an anime that hits you by the heart is still almost impossible in the very vast vast world outthere. tbh i think i were very lucky to have found 2. i have seen dead souls.
i don't know, i'm sorry. i just woke up and reality hits me like a storm. so i just went on and vent about it.
sorry.
k, that should be enough buffering. let us watch this greatness of a show hahaha